Existance

Today I woke up and I finally remembered what it was like to be happy to be alive. It's a pretty cool feeling, not surprisingly. On the drive to work, I noticed that it was sunny, and not just that the sun was in my eyes. I had forgotten that I love the sun, and I'm always happy when it's sunny. It's beautiful out today. It's probably been beautiful out every day, but I'd never noticed.

For the last few weeks, I'd started to feel like I didn't actually exist. I was passing by my kitchen, and realized I hadn't cleaned it in weeks. Then I remembered that I hadn't dirtied more than a few glasses in weeks.

Not doing anything social does that to a person. When your only human interaction comes at work or in one of your many required activities.

A few days ago, a car passed me that said "honk if you don't exist." I'm absolutely sure that it was mocking me.

It's amazing how much good it can do you to get something like the LSAT behind you. After I took the test yesterday, I went home and slept for 3 hours. I got up, worked on my midterm and then my thesis and then went back to sleep. I got almost 12 hours of sleep last night, and woke up feeling well-rested for the first time since school began, probably.

It's great that I feel this good because I have a helluva week ahead of me. I have a midterm tomorrow, the beginning of my lit review for my thesis due on Tuesday, and my take-home midterm (10 pg essay) due on Friday. Then I'm FREE! No Catalyst, no school, no nothing. Except for work. But that's almost nothing. ;)

I truly can't believe that half the semester is over. A member just asked me 5 minutes ago if school had started back. Ha.